as I lay in bed tonight right next to my sweet little peanut I can't help but think of how big she's getting and how much I stinkin miss the baby stage, at a mere 15 months old. I just cannot believe how big she is and how far we've come to be as a family. Its truly amazing and I wouldn't want it any other way.
I also keep pondering the thought of having another.......another. then reality slaps me back onto place with are you freakin nuts.
The fact of the matter is that I didn't start having the babes till I was almost 30 (just turned 32 last month) and I don't wanna be that OLD mom, frankly I love having not to be on a tight schedule (not that we are or anything, I'm a real organized mess said perfectly), I'm completely insane, but a BIG ball of happiness all in the same heartbeat. My dreams of adoption is still a HUGE consideration and I'm completely for it but my hubs not so much. I think that he really looks at it as someone can take them but not me:( I've always wanted that big family feeling because that is what I always had, 5 boys and 3 girls. MY entented fam is tiny and I would love for them to have that too.
Plus, a fab friend of mine just had a babe, she's beautiful too.
Those thoughts quickly dwindle but I am still in DEEP hopes of us adopting in the next 3 yrs or so, not a tiny babe but one either between Layla and Sam or younger than Layla. I would love to take any child and give them a chance at having a gret life with parent s that will love them uncondtitionally.
I do pray everyday for that opportunity.
Good night now.
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